On obeying and what not

Why am I not surprised that when I looked up pictures for obedience, I see pictures of dogs?

It is hard to obey but when you trust the person who asks you to, you do it.

I watched Fireproof a few days ago and there was this song they used whose lyrics goes like this, "While I'm waiting, I will serve you Lord". As much as it is hard to be obedient, it is also difficult to wait. I have been waiting for quite some time for my God's gift. I knew for sure that he will come when I am ready, when I am already a woman that God wants me to be. Now, He is telling me to wait on my dream job. To be honest, I am already itching to dial the phone number to their office, to follow-up on my application but something tells me not to. Waiting takes a lot of patience.

There's this nagging thought telling me not to follow. It asks me where did obedience take me so far and my answer is I have been a stronger person, someone enduring because if not, I would not have stayed this long in my current job. I slept through our household meeting last night and I did not go to church the other day. "Hey, I thought you're obedient", you might say. Well I am not all the time but you see, these things will catch up with you. As I am waiting, I have to let this anxiousness die and what else to do but to serve.

I heard of the prison ministry but in my years of being in a Catholic community, it will be my first time to go there this coming Sunday. I have my second thoughts but I knew God wanted me to be there. I have to be there. What happens next? You will know soon.