About Soulmates

In honor of my third soulmate :)

I just got home from two Christmas parties and when I arrived, I immediately thought if I had a soul mate. For me, a soul mate is someone you do not have to explain yourself to;someone you can stand to be silent with and yet had the most meaningful conversation;someone who you connect with without even trying.
I believe that in one's lifetime, you will meet many and you are lucky if you end up spending the rest of your life with your soul mate. Going back, I think I have met two people and now, I think I met a third one. You might ask me if I fell in love with them? The first one, I might if we had the chance; the second one, at least I think I did; and the third, I cannot tell yet but I am contented to just be his friend.
The first one I met back in college. He's not the type of guy I can get physically attracted to but I got curious because my org mate was gaga over him. I call him a jerk and he admits to it. He is deep and he expresses himself through drawing. I like the fact back then that I will just look at him and he already knows what I am thinking and vice versa. I also like it that he knows where to look for me even if I haven't told him my schedule or where I am going. I missed the walks and sitting still, watching the world go by. I think it was my fault that he is no longer part of my life because I kept turning down invitations, even those from his org mates. I don't know why but I don't regret it either.
The next one I met after 4 years of being a Singles for Christ. Now I notice a trend. LOL! I find this guy a jerk as well when I first met him and I did not give a damn because I was busy being pestered by the older brothers in the community. When we had the chance to talk about family and life, I noticed the connection and it's so hard to deny it. If he only admitted that he feels the same way, I could have tried. I think as far as relationship goes for me, if you make me see that it is worth it then I won't hesitate to make that leap. If you ask me I thought soul mates do not lose their connection, my answer is I agree; they just forget.
The third one is I have yet to meet in person but the weird thing is, just by his answers during interviews and the pictures he takes I can tell what he is thinking and how he is feeling. It happened with my second one, I can anticipate when I will receive a message from him and my friends can attest that I really do. I knew if an issue affects him, if he is mad, if he is sad, if he is happy. You may say that it is madness. Yes it is but we cannot really validate this without me talking to him in person.
Maybe it's because of my gift of reading through people's emotions but can you really tell that if you have not been with that person or if you are not with that person? Anyway, I just have to let this out. I pray that I will end up with my soul mate someday or whoever that person is will stay in my life forever.